I'm fucked up badly.

Sitting here, mind wandering, staring blank,
I'm at awe to be completely frank.
Heart pounding, hands shaking,
this is how it is affecting,

My heart became weak, my mind is not functioning.
My mind says move on,
I tried to believe you moved on, that you are long gone,
My heart says carry on,
found myself hoping, still holding on.

It's best to think this way,
God gave me this role to play,
You are my friend, a friend I wouldn't dare leave,
Cause, I have a goal, I'd like to achieve,
to make you happy, to make you feel better,
to support you, to fight for you,
to be your umbrella, through a stormy weather.
to wait for you, even if it takes forever.

If this is a goodbye,
if it is what you're trying to imply,
it's hard to accept, not to worry, promise, I won't cry.
Bothered, I'd like to ask, "why?"
A friendship you want to end, just left me to sigh,
Though I will still be here, waiting for that Hi,
even Days, Months, or Years will pass by.
Yes, I'm crazy, Sadly, this is reality. This is me.

This is what's keepin me fucked up lately. This is why I have been quiet. I'll be back soon.

3 versus 1

All you have to do is say yes
To not involve in a little mess
So please beware,
These bitches has nothing to bare
everything bad they will say I swear

Taking miniscule details
turning them into huge pile of crap
this is their talent
This is their reason for being
this is what they do in their everyday living

just sit back, relax and get on with the flow
as I too, have my bitchy side to show
nothing we can do with them 2 faced bitches
sick of looking at their ugly faces.

Reversed - Re-post

This post contains obscene and explicit language. Children are not allowed to read. :D

This is now the most ugliest artwork I've ever laid eyes on. Piece of crap.

I made a poem for him last month. He said it's very good. YEAH RIGHT. You bloody fool.

Anything For you - Poem <-- Click here to see original post.

Anything For you - But that was Bepore! >.< (before) hehe

Time to give you this smile
A smile that is not worthwhile
The times I've been so into you,
Will do anything just to forget you,

Endless days, Sleepless nights
What I'd do to kick you right
Again, I will do this fight
Whatever happens, just get out of my sight

Nothing in common, gave me too much pain
I wont hold back for I have to gain,
to not worry, don't feel sorry for me
Should have mentioned this a million times,
I hate you, I hate you, I hate you,

Time will come, I will be happy in someone's arms,
I will be moving forward freely with no harm.

...and you will still be a stupid inconsiderate fucking moron.

The day you wrote this poem

... You made me happy. You made me smile. You made me feel I'm special, a feeling I never had for a long time.

May 18, 2008
Author: undisclosed

Looking at you while you're looking at me,
Wondering what all the things you say you can see,
I wonder what will happen when we will meet,
Whether ill be kneeling and begging at your feet,

The days we have been talking have always been good for me,
You have set some of my demons inside my head free,

I hope the day will come soon,
Then we can lay one night looking at the same moon,

See you soon

July 28, 2008
Author : Roxy

I read this poem you wrote every night holding my pillow tight,
Wishing on the stars for just another sight
thinking of you till the sun shines bright.

Look at me, waiting for you,
this poem you wrote, makes me want to rubble around you too.
Hoping the day would come and meet us two,
it's a dream I would never wake up when I'm with you.

A poem not making any sense,
what I'd do to make a difference?
Now that you're long gone,
everything has been said and done.


For the nose bleed... haha :D

Pinaasa mo lang ako
Kung ano ano pang pinagsasabi mo
puro labas sa ilong at kasinungalingan ang lumalabas sa bibig mo

Para kang insectong hindi mawala sa isip ko
ewan ko ba kung bakit ako nagkakaganito
Pang-ilan na ba ako sa mga nabiktima mo?

Siguro sayang saya ka sa nangyayari saakin
ano bang nagawa ko at ako ay pinarusahan mo ng ganito?
iniwan nalang sa ere at ginawa ang puso kong bato

isa lang ang masasabi ko sayo
isang malaking P H A K
pahabols...
ShukingInamesh kang hayop ka. mawala ka na sana sa isip ko!

hehe.. Ohhhhhh. That felt really good!

Tangkilikin ang sariling wika. I thank you. :D

P E A C E.

Last Poem - What it means to me

What it means to me

Essentially
To be a part of me,
To Hear and feel me,
To look right through me,
To help and set free, the true person inside me.

Regrettably
I showed a different side,
To be accepted and be liked,
Days, months then years go by,
I have believed my own lies,
Losing the true person inside,
I tried so desperately to hide.

Preferably
This happened to me and you,
To deal with variance issues,
No longer sure who is who
Pessimisms, aggravations,
I'll end it now and start anew.
No Expectations, No asking in return,
No promises, I won’t let this burn,
Unless you want to stop me and make me turn.

Forgivingly
I shared the truth,
I see the person I never knew,
I have high hopes; Try my best to hold on,
To believe dreams can come true,
And now here I stand,
Between us, no pretense or glass
With one last thing I want to see,
You'll never know what it means to me.

________________________

This means nothing now

Anything for you

Anything For you

First time to see a smile,

Bring out the happiness for awhile,

A smile that is so true,

Will do anything just to please you.

Endless days, Sleepless nights,

What I'd do for just one sight,

For you I will do this fight,

Whatever happens, Just hold on tight.

So much in common, So much pain,

Both holding back w/ nothing to gain,

Let's not worry,

Let's not feel sorry,

Should have mentioned this a million times,

I will be here for you,

I will wait for you,

Time will come, I will be yours, and you will be completely mine.

Good to Bad

Game Over

Game Over

Shouting out loud from my heart,
You and I, the day has come that we fell apart.
For all the confusions, I am very sorry,
Saying our goodbyes, everything seems so blurry.

Not so long ago we were so happy together,
Foresee my own future, as your "partner"
But all has been just an illusion,
Tears in my eyes, unanswered questions
Things you said, left me with no option.

I didnt expect I would get this feeling,
not knowing I'd be broken hearted & shattering,
These past few months, I thought it was something
Soon I realized, it was like a game we were playing
You won, I lost, Thanks for nothing.

Trust me

Trust me

From the day I started

All that I ever wanted

Is just the money in my pocket

Im so lucky for learning so much

coworkers and bosses I got close, and in touch

Some days they've been hard on me

I dont care cause I love my job and do it willingly

Now that they passed a huge responsibility,

Not sure if I could do it properly

Im worried that I might not meet their expectations

But they say, not to worry "you're doing a good job" upon observation

It's so nice to hear, like a melody in my ear

with that, It takes away all my fear

Not sure what Im going to be

Im so thankful you gave your trust on me

I'll try my very best on this new job, you'll see.

Me & you

Me & you

Here I am making a poem
but this time its not about a him
its about a friend that I just knew
who Ive been talking to for quite a few

Very loud but uniquely sweet
every conversation we had, makes me stomp my feet!
she's a friend with a very big heart,
Im sure its impossible for us to part.

There is somewhat a connection between us,
One thing Im sure, we can kick ass!
coz we both dont like people, making a fuss!

Insecurities and immaturities are not in our vocabulary
coz people like us, are gifted with versatility,
Can be really childish or simply be a lady.

See thats why our friendship worked,
we are so compatible, like a spoon & fork.
No bitching, insulting, backstabbing or whatsoever,
those are the main things that keep us together.

Our dominating jokes could make people laugh and choke :)
Exchanging green jokes about the blokes,
So funny to think, what we do behind our folks :P

So in 1 month time we are going to meet
Im sure its gonna be hell of a week!
Hi Ho Hi Ho to disney we will go!
All the fancy places, and Buildings I will show
I am so excited I know, you know.

For Him - Part 2

Dont make my feelings fade

This is my second poem
a poem about you again
I remember the questions that lingers on your mind
Answers are very easy to find

I used to be strong now you make me weak
Im always waiting for you and cant put me to sleep
see, what you're doing to me is wrong
but I keep on holding on

Because of you I drool makin me a fool
you make me see my past, present, future
I learned so much from you like my own private tutor

scared that my feelings are fading
I cant keep on waiting
I guess il just stop hoping
because I think you're just fronting

For Him - My first poem in 21 years

Fool for you

I dont know what has gotten into you
why you left me so sad and blue
The mornings I told you everything
I thought that there was something
you said to tell the truth
but all I do is hide behind my youth

you knowing me is scary
all I give you is a smiling weary
I wish I just told you everything
so we just kept on talking

the way you talk it gives me the creeps
the thought of you always gives me the jits
i guess i was just thinking about myself
and never thought of what you felt

Now that you are gone
I hate to think that we are completely done
thinking of you every hour every minute thats all I do
I bet you think Im stupid being a fool for you