... You're my angel ...
... You bring out the child in me...
... Never fail to make me smile...
... You make my life easy and worry free...
... You make my life easy and worry free... ... You're my little sophie ...
Him
I haven't had fun in 2 months. When I finally went out last night to have dinner and few drinks, someone called me which I do not know who? But Im definitely sure its from skype. The thing about call forwarding to my mobile is the caller appears "witheld" so it sucks that I dont know who's calling. So anyway, I'm thinking its him. I have a feeling its him. I cant hear anything from the other line but I have a feeling its really him, I just hung up cause theres no point of saying hello a hundred times. But then this kept me up all night. I feel its him but I dont want to think its him cause I dont want to upset myself. I haven't been online for a week now cause it made me more upset when I see him online, then I send him messages but ignores me completely. Im aware of this and its just taking me time to get used to like this, I mean its perfectly fine if sometimes you just dont feel like talking to someone, I do that too.
So after dinner, we had a couple of drinks... we went to this place called "spicy fingers" (a bar in Wan chai, HK) The band was about to start and everything is going very well ordering drinks, chatting, meeting new people... They started with this song. The song that reminds me of him. The song that (I think) made us both realized we were falling for each other. or.. what made ME realize Im falling for him. So, was that a sign? or just a coincidence? A phone call from someone and the song. Whatever. It's just driving me nuts. I took a video and its up to you to figure out the title of the song.
That's just great, when you want to have fun, these things come unexpectedly and just spoils what I have been trying to keep up. Its not that I don't want to talk to him, god knows how I miss talking to him, but the big question is, does he still want to talk to me?
I am not mad at him (and will never be) I am just giving him time and space and letting him do whatever he wants. I don't want him to get stressed because of me, I want to help him but because of my selfishness, I am being one of his burdens and that is totally NOT helping him.
So this is the first time Ive posted something about him (I dont need to mention a name due to some circumstances).
I want to say thanks to the people who has been listening to my never ending story about him. This is really affecting me and I understand they sometimes get annoyed with me. I remember my sister saying "Come on, stop thinking about yourself! if you really care for him, you should not be thinking about yourself! What he's going through is not a joke and that he should focus on serious matters. he's the one who needs help, NOT YOU."
She's right and Im doing this to myself because I deserve this....
So Im going to end this post now and I hope this will be the first and last upsetting post about him. I feel a bit better now as Ive gotten this all out. I will try to live a normal life and at the same time be strong to hold on to everything and wait for better things to happen. As Ive said to him, I will not lose him and he will not lose me, I am willing to wait, even if it takes forever. :)
.........~ Spero Melior.... ~ I hope for better things...
So after dinner, we had a couple of drinks... we went to this place called "spicy fingers" (a bar in Wan chai, HK) The band was about to start and everything is going very well ordering drinks, chatting, meeting new people... They started with this song. The song that reminds me of him. The song that (I think) made us both realized we were falling for each other. or.. what made ME realize Im falling for him. So, was that a sign? or just a coincidence? A phone call from someone and the song. Whatever. It's just driving me nuts. I took a video and its up to you to figure out the title of the song.
That's just great, when you want to have fun, these things come unexpectedly and just spoils what I have been trying to keep up. Its not that I don't want to talk to him, god knows how I miss talking to him, but the big question is, does he still want to talk to me?
I am not mad at him (and will never be) I am just giving him time and space and letting him do whatever he wants. I don't want him to get stressed because of me, I want to help him but because of my selfishness, I am being one of his burdens and that is totally NOT helping him.
So this is the first time Ive posted something about him (I dont need to mention a name due to some circumstances).
I want to say thanks to the people who has been listening to my never ending story about him. This is really affecting me and I understand they sometimes get annoyed with me. I remember my sister saying "Come on, stop thinking about yourself! if you really care for him, you should not be thinking about yourself! What he's going through is not a joke and that he should focus on serious matters. he's the one who needs help, NOT YOU."
She's right and Im doing this to myself because I deserve this....
So Im going to end this post now and I hope this will be the first and last upsetting post about him. I feel a bit better now as Ive gotten this all out. I will try to live a normal life and at the same time be strong to hold on to everything and wait for better things to happen. As Ive said to him, I will not lose him and he will not lose me, I am willing to wait, even if it takes forever. :)
.........~ Spero Melior.... ~ I hope for better things...
They say, What I feel is normal
Its been a week and I still feel the same.. This thing (infatuation??) (Illusion??) (Love?!) (Lust?!) Im confused and its starting to annoy me! I dont want to be a hypocrite and say the feelings that I have admitted a week ago are completely gone. Thats bull.
I am still hoping.. but at the same time... losing hope.. but somehow, there is a much lighter mood... No idea where its coming from? For the past couple of weeks all I've done was worry worry worry and now, when I stopped doing the usual things and found a diversion to my daily routine, I feel like I dont care anymore, All that matters is Im trying, and i dont care what the outcome will be. I don't really care now, I will live my life as normal and not be bothered on whats going to happen next. Is this a bad thing? I hope not. and one thing im sure of right now.. Im willing to sacrifice and hurt myself, but Im still not willing to let go. Is it worth it?
~ Dum Spiro Spero ~ ..........While I breathe, I hope...
I believe
I believe everything happens for a reason...
I believe in love, in arguing, in hurting...
I believe in smiling, in crying, in fighting, in giving up...
I believe life can be so cruel but can be meaningful and beautiful...
I believe in second chances, even if you've completely screwed up.
I believe in love, in arguing, in hurting...
I believe in smiling, in crying, in fighting, in giving up...
I believe life can be so cruel but can be meaningful and beautiful...
I believe in second chances, even if you've completely screwed up.
Survey #1
Ive always enjoyed answering silly surveys from the internet :) So now I will be starting to post my answered surveys on my blog! I know it doesnt make any sense, Lol.. Im just trying to do something different.. you know.. just to keep my mind off things :) so yeah. First Survey ever, More to come. :)
Silly Survey # 1 -23Jun2008-
1. Your name plus "o"?
^ Roxyo hehe LOL
2. Two feelings at the moment?
^ depressed, Sleepy
3. What are you listening to right now?
^ Dry your eyes mate - The streets.
4. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now?
^ I really like, what you've done to me,
I can't really explain it, Im so into you :)
5. Describe where you are right now?
^ At work. :)
6. What is your highlight for the week?
^ My period? LOL ... see my post below...
7. What are you craving to have right now?
^ Lotsa foods! Variety of sweets and junks! Lotsa lotsa lotsa :P
8. Any unforgettable childhood memory?
^ Cut classes with my classmates just to go to the forest and look for Merlin (A wizard) to give us special powers. LOL, its a long story.
9. A not-so-good childhood memory?
^
10. What are your nicknames?
^ Roxy, Rox, xanne, Roxana, Foxy, Darling
11. Your plans for tomorrow?
^ Wake up, Shower, get dressed, go to work, go to the gym, go home, then sleep. :)
12. Your two plans for today?
^ Work then Dinner with folks.
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
^ Yes. Always.
14. Do you party?
^ No, not at the moment.
15. Do you like twins?
^ I don't mind having twins, as long as its not siamese. >.< 16. Fill in the blank "I am ..
^ A little bit ok now ;)
17. Last meal?
^ Chocolate and Tea :)
18. Say anything you like to whoever is reading this:
^ I am bored.
19. Are you feeling hungry?
^ I always feel hungry!
20. Who do you miss right now?
^you know who you are.
21. Last friend you saw online?
^ Lots to mention.
FYI: I dont go online anymore and Im planning to stay that way until I figure out things. But if you want to call me, my skype is still forwarded to my mobile phone.
22. Last friend you saw go offline?
^ The last was last week, on skype, it was Henrique (good guy he is.)
23. What do you like about night?
^ Stars :)
24. If you were in a farm, what do you want to see?
^ What is the connection? lol.
25. Last person who gave a comment to you?
^ Michelle
26. Did you like it?
^ Yeah..
28. What song did u last hear?
^ Let's wait a while - Janet Jackson
29. Where did you hear it from ?
^ From my ipod
30. Now what are you listening to?
^ Dry your eyes mate - The streets (never ending. )
31. Who haven't you seen in awhile? (give 3)
^ I havent seen most of my friends...
32. Do you miss them?
^ VERY. :(
33. Where ARE THEY!?
^ Philippines
34. Given a choice, would you sing or dance?
^ sing SING!!!.
35. What were you doing before answering this survey?
^ Talking with Nicole.
37. What is the favorite brand of shoes you have?
^ CAT
38. What do you feel right now?
^ I thought I was certain about my feelings, but as day goes by, Im getting more confused.
39. When/Where were you born?
^ Sept. 8 - Tung wah Eastern Hospital, Hong Kong
40. Do you consider yourself a jolly person?
^ Yup! :)
41. Do you have a dirty mind?
^ Who doesn't? We all have dirty minds :P
42. What would you do if you found out your ex is engaged?
^ LOL. Goodluck. :P
43. Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
^ Yes. and Im still doing it. I just dont know if it's right thing to do.
44. Have you ever really wanted something so bad and got it?
^ Yup. Tons.
45. Are you aware of what happens around you?
^ Yes and its driving me crazy.
46. When is your next road trip?
^New territories? dunno. depends on my mood
48. Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more?
^ Yup. Too many to mention, but most of them lives in the philippines.
49. Do you need to know everything about someone's past?
^ No. But I wouldnt say no if someone wants to share it. Sometimes it's scary knowing someones past.
50. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
^UK ;)
Silly Survey # 1 -23Jun2008-
1. Your name plus "o"?
^ Roxyo hehe LOL
2. Two feelings at the moment?
^ depressed, Sleepy
3. What are you listening to right now?
^ Dry your eyes mate - The streets.
4. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now?
^ I really like, what you've done to me,
I can't really explain it, Im so into you :)
5. Describe where you are right now?
^ At work. :)
6. What is your highlight for the week?
^ My period? LOL ... see my post below...
7. What are you craving to have right now?
^ Lotsa foods! Variety of sweets and junks! Lotsa lotsa lotsa :P
8. Any unforgettable childhood memory?
^ Cut classes with my classmates just to go to the forest and look for Merlin (A wizard) to give us special powers. LOL, its a long story.
9. A not-so-good childhood memory?
^
10. What are your nicknames?
^ Roxy, Rox, xanne, Roxana, Foxy, Darling
11. Your plans for tomorrow?
^ Wake up, Shower, get dressed, go to work, go to the gym, go home, then sleep. :)
12. Your two plans for today?
^ Work then Dinner with folks.
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
^ Yes. Always.
14. Do you party?
^ No, not at the moment.
15. Do you like twins?
^ I don't mind having twins, as long as its not siamese. >.< 16. Fill in the blank "I am ..
^ A little bit ok now ;)
17. Last meal?
^ Chocolate and Tea :)
18. Say anything you like to whoever is reading this:
^ I am bored.
19. Are you feeling hungry?
^ I always feel hungry!
20. Who do you miss right now?
^you know who you are.
21. Last friend you saw online?
^ Lots to mention.
FYI: I dont go online anymore and Im planning to stay that way until I figure out things. But if you want to call me, my skype is still forwarded to my mobile phone.
22. Last friend you saw go offline?
^ The last was last week, on skype, it was Henrique (good guy he is.)
23. What do you like about night?
^ Stars :)
24. If you were in a farm, what do you want to see?
^ What is the connection? lol.
25. Last person who gave a comment to you?
^ Michelle
26. Did you like it?
^ Yeah..
28. What song did u last hear?
^ Let's wait a while - Janet Jackson
29. Where did you hear it from ?
^ From my ipod
30. Now what are you listening to?
^ Dry your eyes mate - The streets (never ending. )
31. Who haven't you seen in awhile? (give 3)
^ I havent seen most of my friends...
32. Do you miss them?
^ VERY. :(
33. Where ARE THEY!?
^ Philippines
34. Given a choice, would you sing or dance?
^ sing SING!!!.
35. What were you doing before answering this survey?
^ Talking with Nicole.
37. What is the favorite brand of shoes you have?
^ CAT
38. What do you feel right now?
^ I thought I was certain about my feelings, but as day goes by, Im getting more confused.
39. When/Where were you born?
^ Sept. 8 - Tung wah Eastern Hospital, Hong Kong
40. Do you consider yourself a jolly person?
^ Yup! :)
41. Do you have a dirty mind?
^ Who doesn't? We all have dirty minds :P
42. What would you do if you found out your ex is engaged?
^ LOL. Goodluck. :P
43. Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
^ Yes. and Im still doing it. I just dont know if it's right thing to do.
44. Have you ever really wanted something so bad and got it?
^ Yup. Tons.
45. Are you aware of what happens around you?
^ Yes and its driving me crazy.
46. When is your next road trip?
^New territories? dunno. depends on my mood
48. Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more?
^ Yup. Too many to mention, but most of them lives in the philippines.
49. Do you need to know everything about someone's past?
^ No. But I wouldnt say no if someone wants to share it. Sometimes it's scary knowing someones past.
50. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
^UK ;)
Worst Week
1 week of confusion, sadness, emotional stress, and depression... All because of 1 reason... I am in love. All of these are part of the love process, so I have to learn and deal with it. Ive already dealt with the fun part so this time its the hurt part. Wish me luck >.<
I hope this all ends before monday and I hope something good happens to me next week or else I will go crazy. I don't want to forget things, I dont want to stop hoping, The more he pushes me away the more Im challenged,
The more I feel challenged the more I nudge myself. I know the truth will hurt, but I wish he could atleast tell me what he really feel, does he want me to stop? does he want me to wait? does he really care about what I feel?
There is no way I could take back what I said, but I dont have any regrets, The truth will always set me free.
I hope this all ends before monday and I hope something good happens to me next week or else I will go crazy. I don't want to forget things, I dont want to stop hoping, The more he pushes me away the more Im challenged,
The more I feel challenged the more I nudge myself. I know the truth will hurt, but I wish he could atleast tell me what he really feel, does he want me to stop? does he want me to wait? does he really care about what I feel?
There is no way I could take back what I said, but I dont have any regrets, The truth will always set me free.
My Freebie 5!
I got this idea from my sister! its so cool hehe
my freebie 5!
This is not in particular order :)
1.) Carmine Giovinazzo
2.) Leonardo dicaprio
3.) Ioan Gruffud
4.) Rob Morrow
5.) David Boreanaz
I think they're all a bit too old for me, I dont care! weeee I like older men!
my freebie 5!
This is not in particular order :)
1.) Carmine Giovinazzo
2.) Leonardo dicaprio
3.) Ioan Gruffud
4.) Rob Morrow
5.) David Boreanaz
I think they're all a bit too old for me, I dont care! weeee I like older men!
Yep, Dreams can come true :) It will, someday :)
DreamsMove a step closer you know that I want you
I can tell by your eyes that you want me too
Just a question of time I knew we'd be together
And that you'd be mine I want you here forever
Do you hear what I'm saying gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here but I know that you're real
I know what I want and baby it's you
I can't deny my feelings 'cause I know they are true
[CHORUS]
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong
I've seen you sometimes on your own and in crowds
I knew I had to have you my hopes didn't let me down
Now you're by my side and I feel so good
I've nothing to hide don't feel that I ever could
Do you hear what I'm saying gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here but I know that you're real
I know what I want and baby it's you
Can't deny my feelings because they are true
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong
I'm not making plans for tomorrow let's live for tonight
I know I want you baby so hold me tight
Put your arms around me you make me feel so safe
Then you whisper in my ear that you're here to stay
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you gotta be strong
Anything for you
New Job, New Office, New Bestfriend! - Conrad
He's Got a new name! yey :)
While I was helping our accountant unpack her things, I saw this cute tiny teddy bear waiting for me to pull him out of that dreadful box! :) So I took him out of the box and there he was smiling at me :) lol :P
It is my 2nd day in our new office, I feel like I'm in a whole different place... I feel like I have been isolated and missing out all the fun outside the showroon :( It's not that I dont like the new office, its really cool, but the thing is, its just so quiet! Guess Im just not used to being quiet cause im a very loud person! anyway, I dont know yet but its only been 2 days... Maybe Ill get used to everything around in this new office.... New Job, New Office... So that's why Ive found myself a new bestfriend who can keep me company!!! Meet Conrad :)
Here are some photos I took from my new cubicle.. :)
New office theme : Industrial Look
While I was helping our accountant unpack her things, I saw this cute tiny teddy bear waiting for me to pull him out of that dreadful box! :) So I took him out of the box and there he was smiling at me :) lol :P
It is my 2nd day in our new office, I feel like I'm in a whole different place... I feel like I have been isolated and missing out all the fun outside the showroon :( It's not that I dont like the new office, its really cool, but the thing is, its just so quiet! Guess Im just not used to being quiet cause im a very loud person! anyway, I dont know yet but its only been 2 days... Maybe Ill get used to everything around in this new office.... New Job, New Office... So that's why Ive found myself a new bestfriend who can keep me company!!! Meet Conrad :)
Here are some photos I took from my new cubicle.. :)
New office theme : Industrial Look
I love MC!!!
I have been listening to Mariah Carey's latest album E=mc2, this I must say is one of the coolest. I have been a huge fan of hers since I was in my grade school days up until now. So these are my MUST-LISTEN top 5 favorite songs so far:
-Bye Bye
-I Stay In Love
-Thanks for Nothing
-Last Kiss
- I wish you well
As a few may know she just married Nick Cannon, She is so sweet she even included him on her Bye Bye Music video... Love this video! :)
hehehehehe.... :)
Oh BTW, Mariah now has 18 No. 1s, surpassing Elvis Presley's mark!!!!! OH DEAR GOD. Keep Rockin MC! She's 2nd to beatles! Unbelievable. Amazing. Thats all I can say.
-Bye Bye
-I Stay In Love
-Thanks for Nothing
-Last Kiss
- I wish you well
As a few may know she just married Nick Cannon, She is so sweet she even included him on her Bye Bye Music video... Love this video! :)
hehehehehe.... :)
Oh BTW, Mariah now has 18 No. 1s, surpassing Elvis Presley's mark!!!!! OH DEAR GOD. Keep Rockin MC! She's 2nd to beatles! Unbelievable. Amazing. Thats all I can say.
Wish it was Alex
I havent been really open about my work on this blog. Once I mention this subject, I need to start from where it all started.
so here it goes:
I was working for my aunt's friend in a trading company before my "current" job hired me as an assistant homeware coordinator. Basically, Im assistant to the assistant. Lol. and that assistant just so happens to be my sister. :) its really cool to work with my sister especially when there are times that you have no idea on what you are doing you could easily ask her without any hesitations because yeah, she's my sister. :)
Unfortunately, my sister became ill (Hyperthyroidism) and had to resign after 12 years of working. so now Im offered to do her job. Which is good for me because this is a great opportunity to learn more and to actually try new things. My bosses and my sister has been very supportive and I am so glad that they are giving me their 100% trust on this new responsibilty Im about to take. Although it will take some time to cope up things, I hope this will all turn out well. Hopefully. :)
The reason why Im writing this, its because, we are hiring another staff for the office. yes. we are. I dont sound like Im very fond of it. Ofcourse I am not. DUH first things first I dont want to think about the fact that my sister is going and that they have to replace her. There is nothing we could do but to wait, then My coworker had mentioned that she knows someone who wants to work in the office. and my first question was, Is it a guy or a girl?!?! so her story starts there, its a HE by the way... hehe :)
He's Pure Filipino.... but... He's raised in Australia... so it means,.... he has this amazing accent... :D oh I love australian accents.... hehe so I personally asked for his cv through phone and personally submitted his cv to the big boss. I emphasize on the personally. :P I will admit, yes, I had a quick look on his cv :) actually I read the entire cv :), I am very impressed. First thing I thought was this will really impress my bosses. It's gonna be the first time I would be actually working with a guy, same as my age... and... again.... the never ending aussie accent. :) So he was scheduled for an interview, and finally, I met him. :) He's ok :) He's Tall :) and.. he's Cute :) He's got braces though but I dont mind. :) Didnt have the chance to introduce himself cause he was busy with my bosses.
From what I observed, they seem to be impressed. Good sign, yes :) So they gave him a tour to the showroom and also, for the gm to interview him. That part, I dont know what happened but from what I heard, the interview made him nervous and sweaty. >.<>.<
so here it goes:
I was working for my aunt's friend in a trading company before my "current" job hired me as an assistant homeware coordinator. Basically, Im assistant to the assistant. Lol. and that assistant just so happens to be my sister. :) its really cool to work with my sister especially when there are times that you have no idea on what you are doing you could easily ask her without any hesitations because yeah, she's my sister. :)
Unfortunately, my sister became ill (Hyperthyroidism) and had to resign after 12 years of working. so now Im offered to do her job. Which is good for me because this is a great opportunity to learn more and to actually try new things. My bosses and my sister has been very supportive and I am so glad that they are giving me their 100% trust on this new responsibilty Im about to take. Although it will take some time to cope up things, I hope this will all turn out well. Hopefully. :)
The reason why Im writing this, its because, we are hiring another staff for the office. yes. we are. I dont sound like Im very fond of it. Ofcourse I am not. DUH first things first I dont want to think about the fact that my sister is going and that they have to replace her. There is nothing we could do but to wait, then My coworker had mentioned that she knows someone who wants to work in the office. and my first question was, Is it a guy or a girl?!?! so her story starts there, its a HE by the way... hehe :)
He's Pure Filipino.... but... He's raised in Australia... so it means,.... he has this amazing accent... :D oh I love australian accents.... hehe so I personally asked for his cv through phone and personally submitted his cv to the big boss. I emphasize on the personally. :P I will admit, yes, I had a quick look on his cv :) actually I read the entire cv :), I am very impressed. First thing I thought was this will really impress my bosses. It's gonna be the first time I would be actually working with a guy, same as my age... and... again.... the never ending aussie accent. :) So he was scheduled for an interview, and finally, I met him. :) He's ok :) He's Tall :) and.. he's Cute :) He's got braces though but I dont mind. :) Didnt have the chance to introduce himself cause he was busy with my bosses.
From what I observed, they seem to be impressed. Good sign, yes :) So they gave him a tour to the showroom and also, for the gm to interview him. That part, I dont know what happened but from what I heard, the interview made him nervous and sweaty. >.<>.<
1 week has already passed and me and my coworker(the one who introduced the guy) are very eager to know if he's got the office job. So she had a chance to talk to him, and asked whether they've sent him an offer or sumfin.. and he said, well he still needs 1 month notice from his current job, and no, they haven't given him the offer yet. aww >.<
1 week later, I saw my bosses interviewing a lady, can't help but to eavesdrop :) so I heard, that she's applying for the office job. Darn. yes she is. darn. hmp!. anyway, she originally came from nepal but she's an HK resident. You probably know where this story's going.... So now, me and my coworker is so freaked out! This is totally absurd. I dont like that lady. Ofcourse I like Alex! (Oh its his name by the way) Alex! Alex! Alex! :)
... But then I discovered something.... :D
He's.... GAY~!! still that doesnt change me wanting him to be my officemate :) its gonna be so much fun! but he was cute though.. anyway.. the story stops there. its been 2 weeks and still no sign of them hiring him. Just yesterday they were interviewing a filipina. Gosh. another filipina. enough filipina. It's not that I hate them filipinas, its just that, Im so used to working with them there's no fun. I think they are going to hire her. They seem impressed. hmm. we'll see. It's not that I can choose who I want to work with, ofcourse its up to them. but then, I wish it was Alex.
Till my next post :)
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